Friday, June 20, 2008

Update

I am here in Bernice, Louisisana (even smaller than Ruston) at my aunt's lake house. It is so beautiful here - they have about 300 feet of lakefront and a huge porch we have all been sitting on watching the sun come up or go down. Beautiful.

I saw my grandmother yesterday and while it was REALLY hard to see her in the shape she is in - so small and frail and weak - she knew I was there with her and I made her smile a couple times - I think I even heard her chuckle and that meant the world to me. I used to always make her laugh and smile and so knowing that I could still give her a little bit of happiness was very comforting. She could barely open her eyes and didn't get out of bed at all...but I laid down in bed with her with my head on her shoulder and she laid her head on top of mine. I am so glad I came down and so happy I got to see her.

Thanks so much to all of you for your thoughts and prayers - I can feel them. :) Her breathing has become very shallow and labored and hospice thinks she is ready and is letting go so we think it will be soon. For her sake, I hope it is - I wouldn't want to be in that much pain at the end of my life.

I am going to go for a run today at the park that is close by to clear my head. But I have to tell you I ate like CRAP yesterday. Grits, bacon, a shrimp po boy. Trust me when I say my options are VERY limited here. Very. But I love shrimp po boys and they don't have "real" ones in Arkansas so I said - why not! ;)

Love you guys! Thanks again for all your thoughts! We are coming back Saturday morning for Jody's big triathlon on Sunday morning that he has been training for 4 months for! Have a great Friday!
Jess

3 comments:

EM :) said...

Peace to you & your family!
Drive home safe, and to Jody: KICK ASSSSSSSS on Sunday!!!!!

Pictures of the lake please!!!

LOVE LOVE

Kelly O said...

Hey Sweet Pea....I'm thinking of you. Makes you just cherish life and loved ones doesn't it? My former neighbor - their dad just died this week; he was only 70, and it's just that - we are not promised another day. We all need to cherish each other and our lives all the time. I'm praying for you and the family sweetie!
Get home safe!
;-)
K

Jessica said...

Thanks ladies! I am back! ;) And have a renewed outlook on things...go figure! :)

Talk soon!
Jess